I should open my eyes... make it easy to accept things. I want it, I got it... I´ll come take it, it's over here... but it´s still something missing. I woke up this morning... counting all my blessing... And everything that you gave to me... why is this complicated? I just like to hold on... but is it hard... cause I can believe... Iam not believe... that this must be the essence of it all. Stay with me and we will fall... we will fall again.

Why are my thougts so complicate? Why Am I so complicate? My feelings... are not sample... Why anybody do what I exactly want? It´s just so small pinprick to catch me... but it´s nothing happening... :(... nobody doesn´t know what I want... what I need... Why is everything does´t make a sence? :( Iam lost... defenetly...

I had really hard week...

The darkness fades away even the brightest color... I´m giving up on everything, cause you messed me up. You never listened that´s just too bad... I´m moving, I want to forget.

It´s too late now... it won ´t to be same... we´re so different now.

Stop looking at me... stop thinking on me... stop spying me... just STOP!!! Iam not exist... just you said. It´s end... I don ´t want to know you... I don´t know you.

Iam feeling better... thanks for yesterday and today morning, Dennis ;) You saved me...

I know that it was too many bad things I said to you... I know that I hurted you really bad. I was wrong all along... I swore I´d never do this again... but I can´t inspire my behaviour... it´s always totally brainstorm and I can ´t stop it :(. It wasn´t game... it´s only my sick soul.

You have no reason to forgive me... but I´ll be waiting for this... it means nothing now... but I like you... I really do. Yesterday I was angry on myself... cause Iam powerless, selfish, pedantic, devil... I could do only wrong to everybody. The worst thing is that my evil touched you... it was undeserved and unfair. You ever treated with me so good and I screwed it up.

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