I wanna know, why the people are everywhere and I wanna know, where to go if I get scared. Who knows if I'm feelin' all right? Who knows what I'm feelin' inside of me? Who knows what is runnin' around in my brain? Now that I'm done and I seen it... Don't think I' tryin' to complain. Don't think I'm lyin'. Everything it´s getting better now. Iam just cleaning my mind and soul.

We are painting the hall in my flat... just funny... but it looks HORRIBLE... so MUCH ORANGE... dark orange... I have this painting color on my hair... on face... on clothes... simply everywhere. Ohh, fuck... now we have to buy white painting color and repaint it :). I have to calm down... no "useless" panic :P. It´ll be a long day. Wish me good luck :)!

My temperature's low, the fever is high... I can't speak, I'm too weak. My plan is gone. I've usually got one. I want this to last I think I can hold on. It's not a waste of time, because breath between talking is life... waiting for the end of now is life.

Sometimes I be wakin up at high noonsayin, "Why me Lord?" -- folks thinkin I'ma die soon... I just tell em keep seekin, but when they sleepin... I be concealed up in my room, knowin that it could happen. I'm just tryin to maintin, because the future is untold. I guess it was just a dream. Only just a dream... everything in my life. I don´t know what exactly this life means... :(

The disco fever caught me... I don´t know what´s happened... :)... so Iam sorry for that song... but now it´s everything what I need... :).

Can you tell me why it seems so hard to carry on. When you hear a voice from long ago. Even though I try, I can not read between the lines. You know I tried... oh, yes, I tried, what´s wrong. Too late to turn back time... to look over my shoulder. Remember Yesterday and think about tomorrow... but you have to live today... don´t you step aside and pretend about the future.

I don't know how to take this, I don't see why he moves me. He's a man, he's just a man and I've had so many men before in very many ways, he's just one more. Don't you think it's rather funny that I should be in this position. I'm the one who's always been so calm, so cool, no lover's fool. Running every show, he scares me so. Should I bring him down, should I scream and shout. Should I speak of love, let my feelings out. I never thought I'd come to this, what's it all about. Yet, if he said he loved me, I'd be lost, I'd be frightened... I couldn't cope, just couldn't cope... I'd turn my head, I'd back away, I wouldn't want to know... He scares me so, I want him so...

All I need is a place in my heart. To keep me happy 'til the day I die. All I want is a place in my soul to reach up far and touch the sky. It's magic... We've got the magic, deep in our souls. Can't you hear what we're trying to say. Feeling's gettin' stronger everyday.

My demon Brave steed. No weakness saves me. I have my rights... please don't tempt me... I don't belong. It don't matter I'm the problem... hard livin'... high speed My lover. Crucify me.

Another day goes without any change. The feeling we live with still remains. We're stuck in a hole and we're searching for anythig to hold onto. We could be living how we wanted to. Instead of doing things we're forced to do. With no one to tell us that we should be going through what they went through.

I made a lot-a dumb mistakes in my time... believe me I proved and proved it I can't believe... I'm gonna prove it again. It's time to reinvent myself, but where the hell does the fire come from... when makin' it don't make it anymore?

Temptations endless whispers... try to keep it in perspective. So much to distract walking on a wire while your juggling desire. As sure as the rose the bright day blooms as surely still it fades and the night kindles stars on empty winds.

I wish everyday the sun would shine. Take me to another place in my mind. Where everything is beautiful... and no wants or needs... nor sign of greed.

Out of the darkness you suddenly appeared. You smiled and I was taken by surprise. I guess I should have seen right through you. But the moon got in my eyes. I was so thrilled by the love you volunteered.

He brought me rose... and two bottles of wine. So I´ll have a nice night... what about you my angel?

Anything you say it doesn´t change my resolution!

I knew about you... but I´m surprised... the fact that you´re there... and you´re watching to me. I still like U...

Do you like candles? I really like it... the light from it´s so soothing.

Next day I´ll meet with Jirka. We´ll go to the pub... and he´ll going with me to the Employment office on Monday. But I still don´t know what I´ll tell him. I mean... the situation between me and him is so unsolvable.

My brother will be with my mum for one week. So I´m now alone :) :P. Don´t be grudge! :D

Rain rain, go away, come again some other day :).

Thank you D. for that night.

I´m drinking a red wine... in red wine is true... you know... and Iam ready to meet D. It will be strange... maybe. So... I´ll see... It´s making me mad or drunk :)).

Still I dream of it... Somehow linked to all the stars above... I'm convinced of it... What is the meaning of this? And the stars look down... What Am I trying to do? And the stars look down. Was it something I said? And the stars look down... Something you'd like me to do? And the stars look down.

I want to reach for the stars...

Coffee, coffee... and coffee... I love it! :) Iam just a little bit afraid of tomorrow, cuz of the meeting with D., but I want to do it for a couple of years.

The time has come, for bad things to end. The time has come, for life to begin. The time has come, for the war of the Gods... It's that time I'ma take the subtle approach first. Cuz I'm just gettin' started. Let's go.